Hiii…
It’s so weird that we forgot abt this blog that we have. I know you won’t see this but i’m hoping one day you will. One day you will rmb this…
I know i’m an insecure person and that even though through these years you’ve been nothing but sweet to me, i still have my insecurities. Little things seem big to me. The way you kiss me now and before is different… the little texts i receive from you and sometimes none at all…
You talk about being there for me always and yeah… whenever i called you to come round you did. But i miss those times where you just knew when i needed you and came around without me asking for you…
Where did you go? You say you love me more than before… but i feel like we’re so far away from each other. You’re like a stranger that i love and i don’t know why anymore.
Happy 2nd year anniversary my smelly :D
Hehe! Happy Anniversary darling!! :D We made it!!! Haha! 2 years of being with you is just awesome. I seem to love you more and more each day. Even though we have been through much quarrels, i know that no matter how upset we are with one another, we never stop loving each other. :D So darling, lets not argue so much for the upcoming year alright? haha :D Let’s work hard together to grow together in this relationship alright? :D
I think as we reflect on our relationship this past 2 years, i think one thing i think we can improve on is growing in our relationship with God. Although we started off well with constantly going back to God for help and support, we started fading away from Him as soon as we got comfortable in our relationship and no serious problems came up between us. I think it is good that we improve on that :D Gambette alright? :D
I think the past 2 years have been splendid with you being ever so supportive. Through everything. My A levels, my work, my operation… everything. You walked hand in hand with me through all these and you kept me motivated :D Thanks so much darling. I really love you for that. I love that even when i neglect you because of my own personal timetable and stuff i have to settle, you still support me and you never complain about me not spending time with you. Even though you are bored at home, you never once complained. Thanks for that darling. I know i don’t do that for you. I wish i could be a better lover to you darling. I will work on that aspect ok? :D We have all the time in the world anyway :P hehe. Our relationship is limitless :P
Hehe. Alright darling i shall go sleep now :D Darling please take care alright? :D I really miss you quite badly. :/ But i’m so happy and touched that even though you are overseas away from me, you are thinking of me. :D Thanks for buying clothes for me baby! I love you! :D
Muacks muacks! :D Happy 2 years baby! :D Can’t wait to officially celebrate our 2 years together with you when we meet! :D We have to get our album ready too yeah?! :D I wanna record all our moments together! P.S you still owe me zoo photos :D Haha :D <3
Hi darling! :D It is me again! It has been so long since both of us have blogged or even read this blog. :/ I guess somehow we tell each other everything we feel/see/hear/think everyday to each other through our phonecalls. haha. Right now you’re in hongkong and well I’m in my own room. I was talking to Ziqi and Xian not long ago on msn and well after xian went off, qi and i started talking about our old blogs. Then, i remembered this blog. I then went to our archives and went back to the first post i ever posted and started reading from there. It really brought back many bittersweet memories. I teared a little when i read those moments about how tired we both were with our situation and stuff, and i laughed at those posts where you posted really funny entries :D I think it is very apt for me to read all of these posts and blog something now. Today is 23rd July. Just 2 days away from our 2nd Anniversary :D I’m really happy we made it so far darling. It is really funny that 2 years ago we were still struggling with loving each other in a way that suited both of us. Now? We are so comfortable with each other. Haha sometimes too comfortable (you need to stop farting when you’re with me) Haha! :D I really love you a lot darling. I remember how last time i was so shy to even say the 3 words “i love you’ but now? Haha! We say it so often :D Darling i want you to know that even though i tell you i love you so many times a day, i really still do mean it with every single beat of my heart. I mean them much more everyday in fact. I really am still crazily in love with you. You say that after the honeymoon period of the relationship, everything will die down. Well, i must have been an exception because i’m still feeling crazily in love with you. Haha :D I really miss you darling and i know that we will only grow much stronger in our relationship. I know next year around this time i will be reading the older posts and blogging something similar to this to celebrate our 3rd Anniversary :D I know we will get there. I believe so. God has been so good. So good to us :D
Thank you Lord.
Thank you darling for loving me too. I miss you and i love you. <3
((: Hihi! It is me again!! haha! Nothing else to do right now:/ Currently at work. It is 11.38AM here and there are only 2 doctors in the clinic today. 1 in the morning and 1 in the afternoon. Sighhh… I’m so bored of slacking (Amazing huh) HAHA. :D
Today i helped ZX do up her application form for uni…we spent like 3 hours on it. HAHA! Time really flewwwwww! Now she is sitting on the other side of the room reading her book ): I’m so aloneeeee …
Guess i shall start reading my book soon!! The new book i got at 4 BUCKS at TIMES book fair :P Awesome stuff. The secrets of Angels and Demons. :D
Last night was so exciting! Haha! I just agreed to cut my hair out of the blue and BOOM!! I’m at work now with my short hair and my colleagues are all saying i look like a small kid ): HAHA!
Can’t wait for you to see it darling :D Hopefully we can skype tonight!!! :D
I really miss you as always and i meant what i just smsed you. I really love you. :D
Hihi darling! :D haha! It has been a really long while since either of us have blogged here. :/ Wonder why… haha! I guess it is because both of us started getting caught up with our own stuff…
Mehh.. currently at work now… its 2.30pm and there arent any patients to attend to. :/ kinda bored. Am super bored actually… i just read finish the only book i brought- Angels & Demons. Sighhh…i wanted to save a few chapters for after work but i couldnt stop reading it. :/ Really wonder how i am going to survive the half an hr of waiting for my sis.
Anyway, whats a post here without some love for my baby hmm? haha! Darling, we’ve been tgt for 1 year 5 months already!!! :D Time flies with you. haha! It really is amazing to be tgt without much trouble for so longgg hehehe! Looks like both you and i are good at hiding such stuff… :/ Meh.
Darling, i really love you very much and i really can’t wait for the day i get enrolled into Uni and hopefully stay in a hostel so that i can see you more often :D Hehe! I’m sure things will be better by then! :D CANT WAITTTT HAHAHAH! Just thinking of it makes me smile! :D Anyway, i know that sometimes its really hard to keep me happy :/ Many times i admit i get really petty and sad over random things that are indeed really out of your control. I’m sorry for those moments darling. I really am. I hope that as we grow in this relationship tgt, i will learn to be more and more understanding towards you. I really love you and i want to make you the happiest cookie monster in the world! HAHA :D
Meh! Hope you see this soon darling! :D I LOVE YOU!!! :D
(: Yes darling. I do still check the blog. Haha (: Darling, i really did laugh at the zzz monster part in your entry. haha (: It is really retardedly funny (: Meh. Darling, i’m really sorry i made you talk to me for so long last night ): Meh. Forgive me k? :D I’m sorry that i’m this way too. I really just can’t help it. I worry about you if you’re not home late at night, especially if you’re driving back home. Even if i lie in bed at night, i just can’t sleep until i get a sms or call from you that just assures me you’re home safe. I guess i just love you darling. But i’m really sorry if that irritates you ): Meh. Darling, thanks for coming home safely to me. Among the presents you got for me, i think the thing that i will love most when i meet you is just you (: Hehe. But thanks anyway for spending that much money on all the gifts you got (: You really shouldn’t have you know? :) Hehe. Thanks for spending time with me today playing wahjong and bridge with me on viwawa (: Sorry for taking so much of your time that you couldn’t go to the gym ): meh. Sorry and thank you for everything darling! (: you know i love you very much yes? :D Muacks! I love you i love you i love you!
Its been a really long time since i wrote anything here. Meh…sometimes i wonder if you still come to this blog to check but nvm(: ill leave one post for you k. You know actually i really love most things about you except the fact that you like to stay up to wait for me to come home EARLY which i dont really like to and even if i tell you that i come home late you wont go to slp but still wait for me. HAHAHA im not saying that this is a baddd thinggg…just that aiyooo you arh. I guess i really have no choice right since i chose you already)): love you too much to say no or not care about you. last night was quite tired when i talk to you…talked to pretty late and then this morning cant sleep le. Dunno why liddat…last time its like once i close my eyes then im into lala land already. I think my Zzz monster went on a vacation. HAHAHA or he cannot clear customs when i came back. ( please try to laugh k ) HAHAHAHA i think quite funny - lame. Anyway im just clearing up my stuff now and sending my stuff to the washing machine. Hope to see you really really soon k..MISS YOU MUCH!
Did i suprise you?? ((: HAHA just wanna tell you that i love you! Muacks!
Random.
Thirsty.
Wanted to get a drink.
Didn’t bother turning on the lights.
Halfway down the stairs.
My legs cramped up.
Fell a few steps down.
Composed myself.
You can do this.
Got up and went into the kitchen.
Tried Green Lemon Tea.
Sucks so bad.
Went back up the stairs.
Got back into my room.
Smiled to myself.
I did all these in the dark.
For the first time.
I wasn’t afraid.
For the first time.
I didn’t call you for comfort.
For the first time.
I didn’t call you to celebrate all these.
For the first time.
I feel like i’m growing up.
Hi. I’ll learn to adapt, i swear. I really will be able to be stronger than this one day.
I better be.
Right now, maybe things are pretty tough. It feels like im a drug addict in a freaking rehabilitation center.
But i’ll be better after this i’m sure.
Maybe im doing this for you. To make you happy.
Maybe im doing myself a favor. To make me less dependent on you.
Maybe.
I don’t really know whether things are/will be fine.
But i so want them to be.
At least that’s a good start.
So here goes nothing.
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